I sometimes worship at home along with YouTube videos. Last night, I was entering the throne room of heaven along with the Bethel worship team, and they do something called “spontaneous worship”. If you were at our church worship night in August, you’ve been part of this. Spontaneous worship is simply you singing to God whatever you want to say to Him. Anything that is on your heart, instead of praying a silent prayer, you can sing as a declaration. It’s a personal act of worship with no script, just your spirit communing with God’s.
Last night, the worship leader was singing, “No more separation, You have closed the distance between earth and heaven.” What came up in my heart and mind as she was singing was not praise, it was fear.
Jesus has a plan for our world, and He has called me to be part of it. When she sang, “no more separation,” what I heard was, “you’re being watched.” As I brought this feeling to the Lord, He immediately poured grace over my troubled soul.
God showed me that how He does ministry is very different than how I always have. My strategy is to listen, isolate the biggest needs, and get to work on solving them. Then I find the next need, and solve that one. Jesus’ ministry was always to be present with people. When He listens to you, you know that He’s tuned in. Because He lives in the present, not stressing about future things, He is able to hear the still, small voice of the Father telling Him how to proceed.
I don’t remember the last time I did that. I don’t remember the last time I slowed down enough to listen without trying to fix. To listen with faith enough to let go of the control I think I have, and trust God to lead His people without me helping Him. I’m slowly learning to live in the present moment, and that brings me peace.